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2007-01-11T23:05:00.000+08:00

I've moved.

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2007-01-08T21:47:00.000+08:00

I am so tired today. I slept at 5 am last night so I ended only having about 2 hours of sleep. I was pratically dozing off during lesson today cos it was very dry. So learnt more about Social Psychology and things about impression and stuffs like that. So after that was lunch with the classmates at PS food court then to Times Bookshop and Spotlight first before heading off to SR to sit for awhile. Anyway, I found new books today that I want to buy. So I shall save money and buy it when I get enough money. So after sitting at SR, Sheryl came and off I went to met her. She was suppose to accompany me to go look for some presents but end up we were both hungry so we settled our butts down at Meridien food court and had our dinner. After that, I was sooo freakin' tired that I could actually fall asleep while eating. So hence the decision for me to go home and sleep instead of shopping. So both of us left for home. The bus journey was so long that I managed to sleep while on the way home. So got home and the bed was calling me so off I went to lie down and watch tv. I think I am going to sleep now, cos I am not feeling too good also. So I should rest.

Anyway, thanks for listening yesterday eventhough it was like at 3 am? You know who you are. It really helped me a lot. Thanks man! (:

2007-01-08T03:14:00.001+08:00

IT'S 3 FRIGGIN' AM NOW AND I AM STILL AWAKE WHEN THERE'S SCHOOL TMR AT 9.30! And I am suppose to meet Sheryl after that so I really have no idea how am I going to tahan until whatever time we're going out until. Anyway, the reason why I am still awake is cos something happened when I was half asleep and I can't get back to sleep now.

You know what? I don't know what to do or what to say even. I am in confusion totally, my mind's in a huge mess. All I can think of now are the words that you said. It just keeps ringing in my head. UGH. I just need something to like hammer it out of my brains! I really don't know what is the best way for this thing. You know, things are more complicated as it seems. And yeah, it's been bugging me ever since I-don't-know-when. Tell me what do you want seriously, at least it helps that way for me in particular. Okay, maybe I should go with what my heart. Afterall, it's only between me and you not others. It's that phrase that makes me mad at you. Hate this feeling, it's like crap. Neither here nor there. ): ): ):

Digressing, Thailand Mission is from the 24th Nov-9th Dec this year. I am wanting to go. But, at the same time the calling is also important. So pray about it and see whether His plans are for me to go or stay. Okay, it's been a long day for me and I am getting a little sleepy now after all that things going on. So, I will try to sleep and get some rest before I zonk out in class tmr.

2007-01-05T22:38:00.000+08:00

A poem that I got from the net. Written by a father whose kid is ill. So just enjoy reading it.

Entitled ; To My Child.

Just for this morning, I am going to smile when I see your face and laugh when I feel like crying. Just for this morning, I will let you choose what you want to wear, and smile and say how perfect it is.

Just for this morning, I am going to step over the laundry and pick you up and take you to the park to play.

Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together.

Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with you in the backyard and blow bubbles.

Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck, and I will buy you one if he comes by.

Just for this afternoon, I won't worry about what you are going to be when you grow up, or second guess every decision I have made where you are concerned.

Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me bake cookies, and I won't stand over you trying to fix them.

Just for this afternoon, I will take us to McDonald's and buy us both a Happy Meal so you can have both toys.

Just for this evening, I will hold you in my arms and tell you a story about how you were born and how much I love you.

Just for this evening, I will let you splash in the tub and not get angry.

Just for this evening, I will let you stay up late while we sit on the porch and count all the stars. Just for this evening, I will snuggle beside you for hours, and miss my favourite TV shows.

Just for this evening when I run my finger through your hair as you pray, I will simply be grateful that God has given me the greatest gift ever given.

I will think about the mothers and fathers who are searching for their missing children, the mothers and fathers who are visiting their children's graves instead of their bedrooms.

The mothers and fathers who are in hospital rooms watching their children suffer senselessly and screaming inside that little body.

And when I kiss you goodnight I will hold you a little tighter, a little longer.

It is then, that I will thank God for you, and ask him for nothing, except one more day..

2007-01-05T21:53:00.000+08:00

I AM SICK, i think. I am not very sure cos the syptoms of it seems to be similar to a flu. But, I am not sure cos it might be due to my sinus caused by the dust. Cos yesterday I was packing my room right, and there were like loads of dust around so after that, I started sneezing non stop and until now, I am still sneezing. Plus, my nose is running too. So the symptoms are alike but I am not sure. So, it was extremely terrible last night cos my nose was clogged and I couldn't breathe properly. I had to toss and turn around until I find a comfortable spot where the air supply will just flow normally. I was suffering totally man. I just hope when I sleep tonight, it won't be the same as last night. If not, die!

Right, so as I was saying school is suppose to start today right? But, at about 10 am, my dearest buddy msged me and said that class was cancelled so our lunch was not on too. I was like oh man, I was looking forward to school lah and last minute news recieved that school is cancelled? So, another day of purely slacking at home. I am so not used to it, cos I have been out almost everyday for the past month and now it feels funny when I am doing nothing at home. Never mind, it's good in a way cos I spend some time at home. Like show face a bit also lah cos it's not very nice if I keep going out too. And my dad will keep complaining that I go out too much and everything.

And while I was at home today, I finally finished reading Prozac Nation. I think it took me like months to finish that book man. Cos I stopped reading it for a while in between so I didn't get the momentum back to read until recently. So yes, I am finally done with the book. It's a reaally good book. Cos the author completely opens up her life to the readers and said how she dealt with depression. It's just a beautifully written book. So, for those who have yet to read the book, go read it. It's a good investment. Will be lending my book to Eveleen. So after this book, I am off to find a new book to read. Just hope I find the right one.

Survivor, here I come! (:

2007-01-04T23:19:00.000+08:00

I changed my template and my tag board. Cos I was kind of bored of the old template so decided to go for something new. And it's still orange, but never mind. I like the colour and that is all that matters. As for the tag board I changed it cos the old one wasn't working anymore so now you all can tag on my board again cos it's new! (:

So for the past two days, I have been at home. For the first time in 2 months, I actually stayed home for 2 days in a row. And I actually feel kind of accomplished today. Cos I packed my room . It looks so much better now and it feels so much more comfortable lah. I think my room was in a mess even before I left for Thailand. So now that everything is in place and not cluttered on the floor, I feel so much more spacious. Cos I have a small room so imagine if things are just placed on the floor, there would be not much space to walk anymore.

So finally school is starting tmr. I actually prefer to go to school rather then to stay at home. Cos if I am at home, the things that I would do basically would be watching tv, sitting in front of the comp, reading or sleeping. That's basically what I do when I am at home so this is the reason why I sometimes prefer to go out and have fun. Wells, only child what so I don't really have anyone to play with or talk to. Anyway, speaking about school, I kind of miss school too. Cos I miss the times spent hanging out with my classmates and the times where we have lessons. It's interesting lah the lessons so I don't mind having them. So school tmr and I am looking forward to it! (:

Right, my blog entries are a bit boring cos if I am at home, there will be nothing interesting for me. So I will blog another day. I am off to catch some more tv. Toodles! (:

2007-01-03T00:25:00.000+08:00

I haven't been blogging for the past few days cos I haven't been home early. So basically what is early for me now is like 11pm? I can like reach home at 4 plus am nowadays lah. So my body clock is seriously haywired like nobody's business. I sleep in the morning and am awake at night. Right, this is bad cos being awake and staying up late is not a very good idea. Hmmm, I got to get it back by Friday cos Friday means the start of school and next week I will be back at Secret Recipe working so I need to get my body clock right once again within this week.

So before I forget and go on with the updates about the past few days, happy 2007 to y'all! Time is passing really quickly lah. It's like I just got over my 18th birthday and this year I will be 19 at the end of the year. And every year, I just feel that time is passing faster and faster lah. Don't you all feel the same too? I won't say how has 2006 been cos there has been lots of ups and downs. But overall, I have been blessed by God tremendously. And I'm really grateful for that. I just hope that year 2007 will be a better one. (:

So what have I been up to for the past few days? 28th was spent in church having Coffeeshop Nite practice and then dinner at Belle's house. We had really good food at Belle's house then after that was to the coffeeshop opposite her house for supper! I think that day I got home at like 1 plus am.

Then I woke up the next day for Coffeshop Nite. It was a really long day. Had practices after practices. We set up the whole place and set the ambience right. So as the time passes, people started coming into church. And the performances was being held and all. Coffeshop Nite is a night to thank God for whatever things He has done for us in the year. And the event was indeed a success although there were like so much food left over. I really thank God for his faithfulness on that day lah cos I could really sense his presence with us. And other then the good food, there was good music too! All thanks to those who have put in effort to make this event a success! So after Coffeeshop Nite ended, we were off to Eveleen's house to change and get ready for DXO. By the time we got there it was like 1 am. So we stayed until it closed and by the time we got out, we were all very much zonked cos it was like 4 am. So some of us went back to Eveleen's house whereas the rest went to Sentosa. I really want to thank God cos he watched over us on the way back to Eveleen's house. Cos the cab driver drove straight into the curb and he didn't even take notice of it until he kind of banged into it quite hard. So was grateful for the safety that God granted us. So by the time we got ready for bed, it was 5 am. I had a tough time waking up the next day lah.

I think I slept until 1 pm then we had lunch then was off to church for games day. Had the usual games then I left to meet Pork at Toa Payoh. We were shopping there and she treated me to dinner. Aww, so sweet of her lah. Then after walking around, we made our way to Pasir Ris to get our hair done. We were there from like 9 plus all the way to 1 am again. So after that, she came my house to stay over for the night. Then as usual, we will talk and all and by the time we slept, it was like 3am? Then the next day was service in church then off to Sim Lim, cos some of them want to get their things. After Sim Lim, headed to Adeline's house for some slacking moments before heading to church for Watchnight service. I was suppose to meet K and CC and some others in town but then some of them couldn't make it so the meeting was cancelled. But I was quite thankful that I didn't meet them, cos if I did then I will be missing out the steamboat. So we ate supper again. We ate from 12 plus 1 am all the way to 4 am. Right, then by the time I slept it was 5am!

And the next day some of us met together to head over to Demi's to spend some time with her. Poor her, she cracked her ankle while skiing lah. So we slacked, watch Inside Man, ordered pizzas for dinner then talked before Eveleen and I left at 11 plus to head over to her house. We headed over to MOS after that. It was a night of R&B and Hip Hop music. So we were there with Pork. A good time I must say, cos at least they both of them got to talk to one another and it wasn't really that awakward right? So we shared cab home. By the time we got back it was 4 am. Slept and today was spent over at Cass's house for Brownie Day. It was a good day today cos we made our own Brownies and played a lot of games. Good fellowship.

I really thank God for the past few days. Cos I got to spend time with some people. It will be very difficult this week cos everybody is starting to get busy with school so it will be very hard for us to meet up again. Although it was really tiring, but, it the quality of the time spent with the people that counts not the quantity. So really praise God for that! (:

School is starting this Friday. For some of them, tmr marks the start of the school term. It was a good break lah. It came just at the right time. Right, this Dec holidays was a blast! Many things happen. I won't say what happened but, I guess it all happens for a reason. But, I am just bewildered by the comment made by somebody. I won't say who cos I don't think I am feeling the same way as how the person is feeling. So I just hope the person won't think the wrong way. Right, I am so tired and I got to go call my friend now so I got to go. Toodles! (:

What am I to do? So many! Ahhhh. HELP!

2006-12-27T23:32:00.000+08:00

Have I mentioned that I have been out almost everyday for the past few days or weeks? This is bad, cos going out means spending money which isn't good cos it's like I'm wasting my money away luh. And I am suppose to save money not spend it like nothing. I have to control myself seriously know? This habit is terrible! ARGH. I will try my best not to spend on unnecessary stuffs. But it is always not the case for me luh. Anyway, today was spent out in town again.

I think this week I went to town like don't know how many times already luh. But today was spent more fruitfully other then walking around aimlessly. Today was spent watching movie with some of them. Night At The Museum that is. It's not a really fantastic movie though. It was just alright due to the front part where the plot was a little draggy. It was the back that was really entertaining and people in the cinema just burst out laughing literally luh. It is definitely worth $6.50 but not $9.50. So if you want to watch it, go watch it on a weekday not a weekend. Right, so after that, we went to walk around for awhile first before plating our butts down to eat at KFC. So after KFC, was major walking around. We went from PS to Heeren where we spent most of our time at. Then later to Far East. Eve had to look for a suitable dress for Friday so we were accompanying her around the shopping malls.

Now the movie line, dumb dumb give me gum gum is stuck in my head luh, seriously. I don't know how am I suppose to get it out of my head. Even my MSN nick is also that luh! Right. So tmr will be another long day spent outside. First to church for all the Coffeshop Nite stuff then at night is Christmas dinner at Belle's house. First time going to her house. Wonder what is it like, but, according to Char, it's really nice so looking forward to see it tmr night. The day is drawing nearer now, 2 days! I seriously can't wait!

And did I mention too that I still miss Thailand like how you would miss your bed if you didn't have it for 2 months? It's that bad, I tell you. I did miss Thailand when I went over there a few years ago. But, this year seems to be really bad. I mean it has been 17 days since we are back but the feelings for Thailand still lingers there. I didn't know it will be that bad seriously! I just miss the simpleness of it, the children and everything about there! And the pictures bring even more memories back now. I can just look at the photos of it and fall asleep every night. Alright, I should stop saying about it cos I can just go on and on about it. It can become an essay already.

God has provided a lot to me this year. And this year is coming to an end in 4 days? Hmm, new year, new resolutions. I have not sat down and really thought through them yet. But I guess I will in the next few days. And one of them is definitely a closer and more personal relationship with God. I know I kind of fail doing it every year after I said it, but, this year, I'm really going to try my best to do it and not just merely saying it. It's going to be tough but I believe I can do it with God's help! (:

Okay, I will wish Eveleen a

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!

You are like finally 18 and I am almost there. Just 1 more day only! Anyway, thanks for your friendship girl, you mean so much to me that nothing can describe it! LOVES. mwah! (:

Okay, got to talk to my best friend now so toodles y'all.

2006-12-26T22:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BOXING DAY people! And of course a belated Christmas! I wasn't home until like 4am yesterday so couldn't update. This is bad, I realised that after I come back from Thailand, my whole body clock is like upside down luh! Is like I only sleep at like 3 plus 4 am and I wake up at 1 plus 2 pm? Leave the house until at night then go home. That's basically my life cycle for now luh. Which is really bad cos it's unhealthy. Right, I better get my body clock right on track again.

So this is suppose to be Christmas season, but this year doesn't feel like it's the season. I don't know why, but, it just feels very different. Maybe it's because of the things that are happening around me that's why.

So past few days were spent in church. We had Carols by Candlelight on Christmas Eve, and it was quite okay. Performances were being put up and all. And it was raining again. So all the things that were being set up the previous night had to be moved in and cleaned. The logistics people worked very hard for the event. And they did a really good job with the sound and the lightings and everything. They even stayed over in church the previous night to look after the things luh! They were all very tired but yet, they still work so hard for it. So, after the event, we had supper at PP then I went off to TTSH again. So by the time I got home, it was already 2 plus am and I had to rush Christmas gifts so I ended up sleeping only at 4 plus. And the next day church service was on at 10 am.

So Christmas day, was spent giving and recieving presents. The things that I got this year were not as much as previous years, but this year's gifts held so much more meaning then previous years. I think cos I was younger last time so I didn't really appreciate it much. So after church, was lunch with the family at Aunty Pamela's house. Met up with the family but it felt really wierd. I felt that there was this gap in between us. I just couldn't relate to them like how is used to in the past? After that was outing with Vincent. Went to shop for more Christmas gifts in town and we were kind of tired, so we went to Marina Square to sit down and slack before meeting up with the others for dinner at Different Taste. After dinner, headed to K Box at Parkway Parade. The air con was like freezing there luh. It felt as if we were in the freezer. All thanks to Kenneth for his sleeping bag and extra T shirts, it gave us a bit of warmth. So stayed there for 6 hours then we left and home sweet home it was. By the time I got home, I was so tired that I just plonked my body on the bed and I fell asleep straight away!

Okay, birthday is in 3 days time! Kind of looking forward to it but at the same time, I am afraid too. Cos of some reasons that I don't really want to mention. Just see how it goes.

Coffeshop Nite
29th Dec, 6.30 pm
LKC Hall

Okay, I better go off now. Update some other time! (:

3 days to whatever things, right.

2006-12-23T13:10:00.000+08:00

THE BANNER! (:

So the whole of yesterday was spent in church doing things. Mainly the banner and the band practice for Coffeshop Nite. It was a really long and tiring day luh. So met up with Eve for breakfast then was to church for band practice. We are doing 'Surrender' by CCC. It's a really nice song but it's a super long song luh. I am so glad that we managed it well and got our parts right. We had like 2 hours plus of playing our instruments. It reminded me of those days when I had piano exams and I had to sit infront of the piano for a few hours just to practice. And after it all, my fingers hurt like nobody's business luh. It was that bad yesterday. My fingers felt like super stretched. Haha. (: So after band pracitce, was banner painting time.

It lasted from 1 all the way to 10 plus. But it's really very accomplishing luh. Cos imagine doing a banner in 2 days with the help of some people. And the outcome of it is nice I must say. But it was tiring though during the process of it. Marian's and my knees were so painful that we couldn't bend or walk properly. Plus the backache and all that stuff. Will post the picture of the banner. After banner painting, it was like 10 plus already, so, some of us decided to head down to Liquid Kitchen at Gardens for a drink. Before that of course must have dinner luh. I think all of us were like starving or something, seriously. So we met some people at PP and later headed to Gardens for dinner and drink. But sadly, Liquid Kitchen was about to close so we went to Happy Daze instead. Sat there, watched tv and played card games. We were there until I think 3.30am. Was playing Speed with Kai De luh and he was like so funny. His actions are like super luh! I was amazed by it. Cos it was a bit late for Marian and me to take a cab home so we decided to stay over at Eve's house. And we slept in the living room on the couch. Super comfortable luh, it's like even better then a bed! And I totally knocked out until this morning 11 something. If not for Aunty Ann I think I will still be sleeping now, seriously.

So I got home and recieved the news that my grandma was in A&E at SGH. I was like man. What is wrong? My grandfather passed away in May this year, My half-grandad is in TTSH critically ill and now my grandma. I was like ARGH at first. Then later when I stepped into the house, my dad told me say that it was nothing serious with my grandma. I didn't know what is wrong, but, she just went there to play safe. So, I was relieved. Lucky nothing happened if not this Christmas season will be so bleh to my family and me. So about my grandad's condition, it's still very critical. Half of his brain is damaged and the doctors are intending to talk to the family members later. Just hope these 5 days will be a smooth one for all of us. Prays hard to God.

Heading off to church in a short while. There's Carols by Candlelight rehearsal today from 4 to 8. So yet another long day ahead. Will blog another day. Toodles! (:

I'll rise with you in the wake of morning

And walk with you in the cool of night

And every single day

I'm devoted to your ways

Only yours, only yours.

2006-12-22T02:19:00.000+08:00

So I am finally back after almost a week at my mum's house. It was quite good cos I got to spend some quality time with her. And I have been missing that out for quite some time until I almost forgot how it was like spending time with her. So overall, it was a good one. I did things that I never got to do when at my own house like having home-cooked breakfast. Every meal is spent eating out and it can get quite bleh at times cos it's not home food. Anyway, apart from that, it has been a hectic week.

Most of my time was spent meeting up with people and in church. The major thing that happened these few days were Carolling and banner drawing plus painting! So, Carolling was good. Went to a few houses and sang carols and definitely had nice dinner. Thank God that it didn't rain! Cos for the past few days it has been raining like nobody's business luh. It was flooded even at some places like Ang Mo Kio. I will say more about it later. So Tues was spent with the dearest Eveleen. Went to get banner at PS then after that was lunch then back to Eve's crib to wait for Marian. Went to Serangoon Gardens to get our hair done in the evening. Eve and Marian got their hair highlighted and cut. Whereas, mine was just layered. So after that was back to Eve's house to get the banner drawn. And before that we were watching these 2 really grosse shows. It can really make me puke luh. So banner drawn and it was like 1 am.

Today was banner painting day. Met Eve for lunch then we went to get the things needed for painting the banner. We got back to church and started doing the banner. So at about 2 plus, people came and helped out. I feel like super accomplished luh. Cos it's like we took about 7 hours to get almost the full banner done. We just need to do the verse, the venue, time and date and the lines and some touching up for the banner tmr and it will be done! Bravos. Thanks to all those that helped out today, it really meant ALOT! (: After that was dinner at PP then to TTSH. This is the reason why I'm still not asleep at this time.

Cos my aunty's dad had a stroke, so he's in hospital now. It seems quite critical cos the doctors told the family members to get ready. As in they might remove the life thing. But, I can see his will in living on so I don't thing it's fair to remove the thing just as yet. Even though, I'm not close to them but I can see the pain that he's going through now and it aches quite a bit. Cos I saw how my grandfather suffered the way he is now for 4 years. Moreover, the family members are the ones who get really tired and drained. Saw my aunty's sister today, and boy was she really tired. I feel for him cos he's like my half-granddad so some how I do feel something there too. Just pray hard that he get well really soon. People, pray too!

So like I was saying Singapore has been raining like nobody's business. And it was flooded at Ang Mo Kio. Instead of cats and dogs, it should be changed to dinosaurs and whales. Cos these are big animals, and the rain was heavy so cats and dogs don't seem appropriate here. It's my version. Haha. Anyway, the rain was so bad that the drains were like having small spurts of water fall luh. And then you can see water rushing down the drain thing like a natural waterfall kind of thing. Then the whole pavement to the bus stop was flooded. So we were literally walking on water. Haha, and we were at the bus stop and the water level was at the ankle there luh. Then these 2 poor women dropped their shoes in the water. Worst was one of them were heels. Oh my goodness. And they couldn't find it luh. It was that bad, I tell you. But lucky for a man though, he dropped his wallet in the water and he manage to find it. If he didn't jump into the water, the wallet would be gone case too luh. What a wet day it was. Everywhere just seems flooded. Some places were even flooded up till waist level. Seriously, this is the worst time that it has rained luh. Never like rain and this time the feeling of it sucks even more. BAHS! GO AWAY RAIN.

So it will be yet another busy week ahead of me. Let's see.

tmr- Banner painting, rehearsal in church
sat- Carols by Candlelight full dress rehearsal
sun- Christmas Eve, service, Carols by Candlelight
mon- CHRISTMAS!

Then a short break, before the rehearsals for Coffeeshop Nite starts. 27th and 28th are the rehearsals. And it's Jeremiah's and Eve's birthday too! Then 29th is the actual day which is my birthday! 18th birthday spent in church, how saddening. But it's okay, cos at night will be spent out with some of the girls. Haha, so it's like a mini celebration kind of thing. It's exactly one week away to my birthday. EXCITED! (:

Okays, I will post up the photos for Carolling soon. It's getting late now and I better sleep cos tmr will be a rather long day. So yeah. Will update some time soon! Nights y'all.

I surrender all to you.

And here am I waiting.

2006-12-15T14:45:00.000+08:00

Got this picture from Priya on friendster. And boy, this photo was taken like way back when we were all still in Sec school. It brings back many good memories while looking at photos like this. And see how much we've changed over a short 2 years! Haha.

Anyway why am I blogging now? Cause I don't know if I will have the chance to blog for the next few days. Cause the next few days will be spent over at my mum's place. Right until Monday that is. Finally after so long I'm able to see her house. So now I am using the computer to kill some time while waiting for her to come and pick me up. And holidays are ending cos school is starting next Monday! BAHS. Never mind, the events up ahead are events to look forward to. So I shall be happy about going back to school. (:

Okay, I've got nothing much to update about today. Will do so if I have the chance to in the next few days. Oh ya, for the photos that were taken in mission, I will upload them when I get them. Cos now is a busy period for everybody so I don't think we will get it so soon yet. So goodbye for now people.

2 more weeks to 18. Can't wait, can't wait! :D

2006-12-14T22:40:00.000+08:00

I am finally free from all of my business.

Ended camp today and I must say I gained a lot from it. Even though it was just a few short days but it was really good. Never have I felt the hurt that I'm feeling inside could be so overwhelming until that night. For the past years, I didn't understand why things happen. But, after that night, I learnt that God make things happen for a reason. If all these things didn't happen, then I think I won't know about God through friends. God didn't put us in this world for no reason, the pain that we are facing is to mould us into a stronger person as a whole. As I look back in my 18 years of life, I've seen how I have changed for the better. God has indeed worked in my life and I really want to thank Him for that. Worship was good. Even though I couldn'tjoin in cos I was playing, but, I could feel God moving there and then. And the letter that they printed out moved me totally. I was lost for words actually, it showed us how deep God has love us. I am just so refreshed now after the whole camp and mission. (:

Mission update.

It was totally awesome. God worked tremendously. I feel that this year, the team gained more then they gave especially during the first half of the trip. There's definately tirednes, but, the team didn't rely on our own strength, but instead, we looked to God for strength. I was watching a sermon on tv at Pa Daeng and the pastor was teaching about faith. The scripture was taken from Hebrews 11 and one thing that he said, until now, I still remember. And that is "Faith doesn't fail cause God doesn't". Short but powerful statement eh. And other then gaining so much things, the children there are just simply wow. The things that they have are so limited but, they do not complain. They are just happy with whatever things they have in their lives. And the way they worshipped God is simply powerful. Their voices are so loud that they just cover the sound of the guitar. I learnt lots of things in this trip, definitely more then the last one that I went to. God has blessed me and now it's my turn to bless others with whatever I've learnt in this trip. I really want to thank God for His faithfulness in my life. :D

So after this, what am I going to do? Lessons learnt, but I must apply in my life. Without application, the things that we learn means nothing. So, from today onwards, I will try my best to put whatever things I have learnt into application.

Upcoming events
1) Carolling - 20th Dec
2) Carols By Candlelight - 24th Dec
3) Christmas - 25th Dec
4) Coffeeshop Night/My 18th birthday - 29th Dec

So thats's that. And we're moving into Christmas season and it's a season tobe jolly and happy! (:

give me time to breathe and think.

2006-12-11T02:28:00.000+08:00

BACK FROM THAILAND!

I will blog more when I have the time to. Cos I'm really tired now and there's teens camp from tmr to Thursday so I need the rest!

Will update when I'm back from camp. Good night all! (:

2006-11-25T02:09:00.000+08:00

Okay, why am I still awake at this unearthly hour? Cos I'm packing for Thailand. I just finish my assignment only and I got 1 more to do tmr. So good luck to me. This year, to me, it's evident that there's spiritual attack and it's actually coming down quite hard on us actually. At least to me, I feel that way. Hai. I don't wish to mention anything here. Maybe I will when I feel like it lah. But now, I will just go pack my things and go sleep and not think about the rest of the things.

Bahs, I hate this feeling! ):

2006-11-23T00:11:00.000+08:00

Okay, the post that I last post was yesterday's post not today. And I'm posting the post for today now. Right, so today was spent at home, in church and in town. I woke up late again luh. I was suppose to do my work in the morning, but due to the lazy me as usual, I woke up and went straight to the computer and came online. Planted my butt down infront of the computer from 11 plus all the way to 2 plus. Then due to my laziness again, I decided to cab down to church. So I left for home at 2 plus and it was raining uber heavily. So, there was this cab in front of me but I didn't take it until much later cos the cab belongs to someone else's. So I was waiting for a miracle to happen cos I was already late for mission training. Then so happened that the cab driver asked me to get on the cab cos the person that booked the cab apparantly didn't turn up. So after that, I was on my way to church. Isn't God just so good to you at times when you need something small?

Anyway, reached church and had mission training from 3 to 7. Was praticing all the dances, skits and action songs. Learnt the Rejoice Africa songs and Shout To The Lord too. It was a good one cos I guess what we need now is just constant practices before the whole mission starts. So, we're having another last training on this coming Friday at 1. And before practice started today, we were just praying for one another. I guess the team needs loads of prayer especially when it comes to spiritual preparation. We might get all the dance moves right, but if our spiritual level is not there, then how can we testify to people around us about God? And after prayer, Jasper was reminding us of getting spiritually ready for mission. What he said was that our attitudes have to be right before God before we leave. Are we having the right attitude and living a life that is pleasing to God now? Mission is drawing nearer and nearer now, and Satan will definitely defeat us down in all ways. But with God, nothing is impossible and I'm sure Satan won't have his way through.

After that was dinner and then towning with Kai De and Vincent. We only managed to walk around half of PS, cos by the time Vincent met us it was already quite late. So walked into a few shops and then we left. Wah, these two guys can really shop man. Haha, I am serious. I think they covered almost every shop we went pass luh. So I think it was quite a good retail-therapying session with the both of them. Haha, these two guys are just funny luh. Miss hanging out with them and a few others too. So after that, took a train then a bus home. Was just thinking of somethings on the bus. And things are cleared in my mind somehow I guess. Been spending some quiet moments by myself these few days and I think my heart and my mind are focused on one thing now first, and that is my relationship with God. Without any relationship with God, nothing can fall into place. Without God, everything to me just doesn't seem and feel right.

God, you know what my heart is yearning for. Praying and waiting is all I can do, I don't expect much as well. Cos I am going to choose to believe whatever things you have planned for me will eventually come through. All I got to do is to live by faith and pray everyday. I am going to put everything into your hands, Lord. In Jesus name I pray, Amen! (:

I still do.

2006-11-22T00:46:00.000+08:00

So today was spent taking loads of pictures. I think there were 20 over pictures taken luh. Then we went to Kodak to develop one of the photos, that one is for keeps. So let the pictures do the talking for today. (:

Will be watching this movie at PS on Thursday at PS. Can't wait, the last movie before I leave for Thailand! (:

Dance with my Father ; Luther Vandross
If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
How I'd love love love to dance with my father again.

Okay, I better go off now. There's mission training at 3 tmr. So goodnight all! (:

2006-11-21T16:23:00.000+08:00

Just decided to change my template. So here is a new one for all of you. Really love the colours and the blending of the colours. Loving every bit of it. (:

Right, I'm suppose to do my assignment but I have not touched a bit of it yet. See, I am so dead. I only got 4 days left to do 2 essays. I got one of the essay's information out already but not the another. And I've got not much time to do so too cos I've got mission training tmr afternoon and I won't be free tonight. So, how am I going to do it luh, seriously? I need prayers.

Oh anyway, tonight will be spent in town with Priya, Lydia and Sheryl. We're celebrating Priya's birthday, meeting them at 6 at Orchard Mrt. Glad to meet up with them once again cos it's been long since we last met up as a group. Got lots of catching up to do especially with Priya. Actually, thinking about all these meet ups bring me back to the memories of Secondary school. I mean Secondary School contain the best memories I have. With all the fun of bullying teachers, the fun after exams, sleeping, eating and talking during lessons, the canteen and definitely not missing out the toilet! Haha. (: And yes, the good friends that you have are founded when in Secondary school. I mean when you're in Secondary school, you don't see the fun but it is different after you leave school. All the parts of them will be imprinted deeply.

Was just reading one of the letters one of my best friend wrote when we're still classmates. That time, we could just tell each other everything that we were thinking of. We shared all our happiness and sorrows with one another. We quarrelled definitely, but, we renewed that friendship once again. And now, things have changed. I don't get to spend as much time as last time with her due to our busy schedules. She has found her new friends, but still, I will never forget the times we spent crying, laughing and everything. I hope she still feels the same way too, I still do drop her msgs once in a while and she replies but somehow I just feel things are not the same anymore. But, I believe this friend of mine will still share that same thought as me and that we will stand by each other no matter what happens. And that is a promise we made with one another last time. I have faith in you. Thank you for your friendship all these while, and I appreciate for everything that you have done, dearest friend. Thank you so much. If you need me, I'm just a call away cos I know you will be too. (: I was feeling quite down yesterday and thanks to friends who have been there to listen to my woes. It really helped a lot. And it happen so that I took out my phone and talked to my best friend again. I feel comfortable just telling her everything. She knows me the best. Btw, it's the same person as the person I'm talking about just now. She told me not to worry and she was there to comfort me. This is what good friends do, they listen to you wholeheartedly and lend you a ear when you need one.

I really thank God for her. The post is dedicated to her. As this friendship means so much. (:

2006-11-20T23:06:00.000+08:00

Today was a long day as well. Met up with Vincent and Lyndon at Yew Tee to go to Kranji Pri School to go sell uniform for the Pri school kids. First time doing this thing, and it was really great. A whole new experience. But the bad part is the travelling time and the early-ness of the meeting time. It's quite a slacker job cos all you do is just sit there and wait for customers to come. After that, you will have nothing to do already. So by 2, we're almost done with everything. We had a super messy lunch lah, cos we spilled the soup all over the place so had a tough time clearing up the place after that. And we made a new friend, he may be a bit different but God has been good in his ways by not allowing us to do the things that we usually do.

After that was towning with Sheryl. Walked from Wisma to Far East then took a bus down to PS, just to look for presents. Finally, found something that was suitable. But at the same time, some retail therapying was done at the same time too. We had dinner at Far East. And then was continuous walking until about 9 plus. Reached home and watch American Next Top Model. I so love the show, and now finally the season has come to an end. I just love American Next Top Model so much lah, it's rated as one of my top few favourite shows. Haha. (:

I just realise running away doesn't help.
Waiting patiently is all I can do now.
But, do I have what it takes to wait?
Praying is all I can do now in my part, I guess.
This feeling sucks big time.
All at the wrong timing, I need out! ):

2006-11-19T23:19:00.000+08:00

So had school on Friday. It was a movie cum photo taking day. We took lots of photos using our phones and we also took neo prints but too bad Jamie couldn't join us. Anyway, we caught Step Up. One word to describe the dance moves, SUPERB. It was really good watching them dance lah, especially Channing Tatum. For such a huge guy like him to have such flexible moves is just so difficult, but he just does it so well. The movie wasn't a really fantanstic one though. So overall, I give it 3.5 stars. So after the movie, they left for home and I went off to church.

The camp was overall a good one. Though it was really tiring due to the not enough rest in camps and the cold floor that we had to sleep on. But I would say I have been blessed and I coudn't ask for more. During the camp, the speaker reminded the kids how important is to pray and listen to God's voice. The verse was from 1 Samuel chapter 3, verse 9. "Speak Lord, for your servant is listening". A short verse but this verse talks so much about listening faithfully for God's voice.

So came Saturday and the event, Worship Night. It was AWESOME-NESS! Nothing can compare to the love that God has shared with each and everyone of us. Through the whole planning of this event, I saw how God bonded his people together in unity. It was just simply amazing to see his people worship together as a family of God. I not only saw God working, but it also reminded me about something important that we should do in our daily lives. And that is praying. I guess this week, God is trying to tell me how important is it just to lay everything down, take a few minutes out just to pray. During the lesson on Saturday morning at camp, the speaker said about prayer. And today during mission training, I was reminded yet again to pray.
I was touched my God's love once again last night and it really refreshed and restored me. (:

Mission is drawing nearer now, just one week more! (:

2006-11-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

YES, THE DREADED EXAM IS OVER!

Look at how excited I am now that the whole thing is over. I can't believe that I actually sat through the whole exam lah. Met them in the morning to revise through whatever things that we have not studied for. Looks like I am not the only one who was 'stressing' over the thing. The whole group was too lah. Then we sat at Macs to have breakfast and studied our notes. We were cramping a lot of informations in at the last minute. We used abbreviations even to help us remember. But it was good, cos the abbreviations helped a lot. So we went to school after that and on the way to school, we were discussing some areas that we have not touched at all. Actually, I want to thank God overall cos I could sense his presence there with me when I was doing the paper. The exam is quite alright I would say. (: I don't think I will flop but I don't think I will do well. So pray that my presentation and my essay would pull my marks up. If not, I will be so dead. Oh wells, it's over now and I don't want to think about it anymore. So hack the exam now and concentrate on my 2 essays. Another headache again, rawrs. ):

After that, headed to PS to have lunch. Was suppose to eat lah but all of us didn't cos we were still full from the breakfast. So we just ordered desserts and finger food to eat. While eating, I saw CC. I still remembered when I first knew him. It was funny lah cos he really can entertain you at times. Anyway, Fiona was just sharing with us about her getting stalked by Joel. Erm, it was scary lah. Imagine someone following and knowing your whereabouts everywhere you go. It's so freaky. So I said if he dares to do anything, we will all sit on his head. But ya, he didn't appear so there wasn't any chance for us to do so. After talking, we headed to the toilet. We were taking pictures in the toilet. Girls love doing it no matter where they go to, it's part of their life. After pictures was down to SR to get my pay. After that, home sweet home.

Was really sleepy and I was suffering from migraine. So slept for a while, then I woke up. Was actually thinking of going to the library at first but, by the time I woke up it was like 6 plus so decided not to go there. Instead, I went for a haircut! I love my new hair now especially the fringe lah. After hair trimming, was dinner with the family then shopping! Don't get me wrong, I was suppose to go shopping for things to bring to Thailand like the neccessary things. So, bought a pair of jeans, a long sleeve shirt and insect repellant. After shpping, back to the nest it was. (:

Okay, I won't be updating from tmr until Sunday cos will be in church for KFC camp. Worship night this Saturday, whoots! Will update when I'm back from camp on Sunday night. Gotta hit the bed now, meeting the rest at 8.30 tmr! Good night all. (:

My father lived, so I could live the way he did.

2006-11-15T22:48:00.000+08:00

STRESSED!!

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Ahhhh, I really am stressed to the max lah. Nothing seems to be getting in cause I just can't seem to get my butt down to study. Seriously, I wasted my whole day away and this totally sucks. I tell myself to study, study and study but what is this? I can't. BAHS! God, I really need your help this time. I need the strength and all to do my paper tmr. I know tmr's outcome is going to be really bad cos I won't know what to write on my paper cos nothing is going to come out but I am going to trust and depend on you. I know I can do this cos you are beside me.

Right, but I am thankful though for the friends beside me. Cause they are really helpful and all. I didn't have the time to study the past few days and I'm cramping everything into 2 days. And they are so willing to help me. Meeting them at 8.15 tmr at Tanah Merah Mrt to go to PS Macs first to study, cause they are going to help me cramp in whatever things that are possible. Then after that, we'll head down to school to sit for the horrible exam! After tmr, I am going to be free just for a while cos the week after that, it will be busy doing my assigments week. I can't get a breather lah, one after another one coming up. Horrible, so horrible. Can someone just beat me to the floor now? Never mind, I will see how everything goes. I really need strength especially in these 2 weeks before I leave for Thailand and break from all the school stuffs.

Wokay, I better get back to my books now. Bye all!

Tired, drained in all aspects. ):

2006-11-15T00:50:00.000+08:00

I am here to destress. Seriously, I am super tired and stressed out! RAHS. I only got 1 day left to study for my exam. And now, everything is not going the way I want. Actually, I've got all the notes done already and my classmates sent me the notes too and I need to print out the notes like today. BUT, my printer just chose to crash at the wrong time totally. So now, it just doesn't want to work in any sort. The most fustrating thing is that my dad said it was okay in the afternoon! Why must it crash at the point when I need to use the stupid thing? Rahs. So now, I am trying to write out my notes lah and I am so tired already. I need sleep, I need and want a break. But, my school just doesn't provide me with that. Luckily, will be leaving for Thailand next Sunday. It allows me to take a break from school and assignments but most importantly, it allows me to spend time with God. I have been yearning for that so much recently. I miss the feeling of being in God's presence.

Anyway, today went to Eveleen's school to meet her for lunch. After lunch, we sat around to wait until time is up to go to church for mission training. So training started at 3 and we did practice most of the things that we have yet to practice which is good. Cos then, we can concentrate on other things that we have not done yet. Then was dinner and after that back to church again to collect medicines to bring to Thailand and some briefing to be done. Commissioning this Sunday is making me all hyped up for Thailand. (:

Worship Night this Saturday. (:

Actually God is good. Even though I am so stressed and tired now, but the plans that He has for me after my exam are just simply great! I am looking forward for the weeks ahead now. Okay, maybe I shall be more positive and not be so negative about the whole thing so I won't feel so bleh about it. I better get going now, got to hit my books now.

So much things to do, yet so little time. ):

2006-11-13T00:08:00.000+08:00

Just to share something with all of you readers.

John 17 : 20-26

'My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one: I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and you have loved them even as you have loved me. Father, I want those you have given me to be with me where I am, and to see my glory, the glory you have given me because you loved me before the creation of the world. Righteous Father, though the world does not know you, I know you and they know that you have sent me, I have made you known to them, and will continue to make you known in order that the love you have for me may be in them and that I myself may be in them'.

A real long passage but it means so much. (:

2006-11-11T00:21:00.000+08:00

Audio: Cannon in rock

I'm finally back after a long day out. It was school in the morning then our usual place again. Just that it's not the food court for today, it's Carrefour. Finally a change after 2 months! We went Carrefour to buy some food seperately and eat. I bought the whole roast chicken but I didn't eat cos I didn't feel like eating it. Skip the details, after that, went to SR to get my money back. I sound like some loan shark lah seriously. Then I sat down there for a while and I started getting a bit hungry so ordered food and caught up with some of them a bit. Was there from about 2 plus all the way to 4 plus. After that left for Kovan to meet Eveleen.

We walked around the shopping center and I got tempted to buy things again. But, I decided that I should not so I didn't. That's a good thing so I can save money like that. Anyway, we left for church to go for Worship Night Practice at about 6. The practice was a good one. Everything went well and as usual, Eveleen and I were doing the slides for the songs. I really want to give thanks to God for his providence of everything. He is just so great. And so now, we're left with 1 week to Worship Night. Whoots! So exciting. (:

Next week will be a REEAALLYY hectic week.

Monday 13/11- school
Tuesday 14/11- mission training, collection of medicine
Wednesay 15/11- mission training
Thursday 16/11- terror exams, school, prayer meeting
Friday 17/11- school, KFC camp, stay over in church, worship night practice
Saturday 18/11- KFC camp, Worship Night
Sunday 19/11- Commissioning, KFC camp, mission training

The week after that will be preparation for Thailand, 2 weeks more to Thailand. 26/11/06 to 10/12/06. (:

2006-11-09T23:12:00.000+08:00

Audio: Welcome to the Black Parade by My Chemical Romance

Had school today and today is the last session of tutorial with Michael. Will miss this lecturer of ours totally. Cos he's seriously very entertaining and he's a real good teacher cos he tries his best to help whenever he can. He's entertaining cos he always does stupid actions and make us laugh like nobody's business. We almost recorded down in a video cos we wanted to put it on youtube lah. But we decided that we should be nice and not do it. Oh, and he has got lots of sad stories to tell. It's normally about him and his family. So if you want to hear some, you know who is the best person to go to. After school, it's the usual hang out place for us. Then after lunch, the rest went home and I went to Potong Pasir Macs to sit down and study for a while which it's quite productive I guess.

After that, went up to church for prayer meeting and dinner. Then left for the wake at Garden Of Remembrance. Sat around there until about 9 plus then we left and came back to Potong Pasir where my dad picked me up from and home sweet home after that is. (:

Oh, please continue to pray for the items below:
1) Worship Night
2) Thailand Mission 2006
3) Pray for all the O and A levelers
4) Pray for those who are unwell.

I'm down with flu! Seirously it totally sucks, cos it's the wrong time to be down with one. I'm so tired already and I still need to study and get the energy to do my assignments and all and now, I'm struck with flu. My goodness, flu means rest. Which means, I will have less time to do my studying for exams which is on next Thursday and my assignments. Argh, I really need tons of prayers. Anyway, I believe God has his plans so I should just trust him and see where I will go. I got to go now, need the rest and I've got school tmr at 10am. So goodnight everybody! (:

2006-11-06T22:16:00.000+08:00

Have not been updating these few days cos was busy doing the slides for Worship Night. Finally with the help of everyone, we are done with the slides of the available songs already. That is a very good improvement from last week cos last week we had nothing out yet. So good job everybody! Anyway, was in church the whole day on sunday. Had mission training and we learnt a bit of 'Akha' language. Was really interesting learning how to speak it cos I've never learnt how to speak the language before. After learning 'Akha', went up to LKC hall to continue on doing the power point slides for the songs. At the same time, watched the band practice the songs that they're going to sing on Worship Night itself. It was really good especially it is only the first day of rehearsal.

Today had school as per normal. But it was only Amanda and me in school cos the rest of them decided to stay at home to study for the exam. But I'm glad we went, cos Carol taught the topic on Alternative Health Care which is not in the book and it will be tested in the exam itself. After school, went to PS for lunch and we had nothing to do so walked around and wasted our time at Gelare until about 2.30 before going to City Hall. I won't mention the things after that cos it's a real long story and I'm lazy to repeat everything out. So I will just save it. After spending 2 hours at Stamford House we left for home.

Things coming up:
1) Module 3 exam on Health Psychology, 16th Nov
2) Worship Night, 18th Nov
3) Assignment 1, dued 24th Nov
4) Assignmetn 2, dued 24th Nov
5) Thailand Mission, 26th Nov to 10th Dec
6) Christmas presents preparation, 10th Dec to 25th Dec
7) CHRISTAMS, 25th Dec

One word to describe this. BUSY! The worst is that all the things are so cramped up with another, so I really need prayer that I don't get burnt out. Oh wells oh wells. :( And this week, everyday will be spent in church due to Mission trainings, Worship Night practice and meeting, Teens time and Sunday Service. I've got to get my butt down to start studying now seriously. I don't have much time left anymore. RAHS! I better go off now, got to do some studying now. Update when I'm free, toodles. (:

Never gonna regret, watching every sunset.

2006-11-03T23:28:00.000+08:00

Had school at 10 today. As usual, learnt more about Psychology. But this time, learnt so much informations about the brain. Naidu cramped like 60 over slides in 2 hours lah. I got lost half way during class today cos it started to get a bit boring half way due to the long terms that we have to learn. But thanks Mr. Naidu for the 15 mins short break after 1 hour of lesson. It really helped cos it refreshes the mind. So after school, headed to PS food court as usual to eat our Cai Peng. And we were laughing our heads off in the food court lah. FIL, MIL, grand-FIL and grand-MIL. Internal joke between Amanda, Fiona, Shanu, Jamie and me. Haha, and we were laughing so hard that the uncles on the other table gave us a real wierd look. I think they must be thinking that we were probably going mad or something. But, it was a good time of fellowship with them and we were enjoying oursleves. (:

School work is starting to pile up now. And I'm beginning to feel the stress of it all. I really got to start doing something about my school work. I should not be just wasting my life away by using the computer and watching the tv everyday huh? Focus, Jasmine.

So after lunch, Jamie and Shanu headed home. Fiona headed to work. And Amanda and I went job hunting. We were thinking of going to Isetan to ask for job but after we reached there, we decided not to. Cos the people there wasn't really friendly and all. So we decided to turn down the offer. And what we actually did was we bought Straits Time and Newpaper to job hunt. Then we headed to Simei cos we wanted to work at Pet Safari. But we couldn't cos they were not looking for part timers at the moment. So after that, we sat at Starbucks and read through all the jobs that we thought we could work for. And we found this not bad one. What we are suppose to do is to coordinate tutions for people and apparantly we earn quite a lot from it. So we are heading down to City Hall tmr for the training. Yup, after calling the different places, met Amanda's mum and dad for dinner and had food court food for dinner again. Oh, they paid for my dinner and gave me a lift home some more. Thanks Amanda's mum and dad! (:

Got to go now, Survivor is back and I want to go watch it. Love that show so much. HEE! Night everybody. :D

Endorphines make one happy. (:

2006-11-03T00:29:00.000+08:00

I just got home not long ago only. Today was a real long day for me. As usual, had school in the morning then went to PS for food court food again. But today, I didn't eat Cai Peng. I ate Korean BBQ. I miss eating other food lah so decided to have something different for today. After that, left for Potong Pasir. Was suppose to be in church at 4 but I reached PP at 1 plus. So stayed at Macs to study for a while since I had 3 hours to spare. It was quite a good quality time spent in studying. Really absorbed somethings into my head this time. Anyway, after that was meeting for Worship Night then dinner at 3 Cube with Lynette, Grace and Faith. Had my usual, curry chicken! After dinner, went up to church for prayer meeting.

Anyway, I did the most stupid thing I could have done today seriously. Cos I was msging Amanda and my phone got stuck half way so I decided to switch it off and on again. So I typed in my pin number and it says wrong pin. Attempts left: 2. Then I remembered that I changed my pin before and I can't remember the new pin number. So I tried other numbers and I can't get it right. So after 3 attempts, my phone got locked totally and they asked me to key in my PUK number. I was like huh? I don't even know the number for that lah. But nevermind, I called 1626 thinking that I was still a Singtel user and I keyed in everything then I realise that I changed to M1 last year? So I had been calling the number wrongly all the time. RAHS. But anyway, I got it settled now and I better remember my new pin in case something like this happens again. How blur can I get man seriously, totally sucks lah. ARGH!

Anyway during today's meeting, Zheng Qin shared about something that I would like you all to know about it. He said that God gave us gifts like salvation and mercy. But worship is something that we should be giving to God. Made me ponder when he made this statement. And we were also sharing about spiritual dryness. Hmm, and I realise that I was facing that too. How can I serve God properly when my own spiritual life is not right with God? Especially when Worship Night is drawing closer now, the devil will use all ways to try and defeat us, how do we deal with that when our spiritual path is not right with God? Many a times, we always ask God to be there for us when we are facing trials but have we given a thought to God? How will He feel when we neglect Him? Some thoughts to think about there.

Anyway, I was talking to J last night online. And yes, we had a good conversation though I was hardly online due to poor wireless connection. (: J was asking me about how's life without Secret Recipe and I was like damn sian lah cause there's nothing to do at home. And we were discussing about funny videos to watch on youtube and J was trying to keep me company with this song but it didn't happen cause my wireless connection was down the whole night. Thanks for that kind thought by the way. Anyway, J sent me this video on Psychology. It was like that, you are suppose to count the number of bounce pass and the number of air pass done by the white people. Most people will be so focused on counting that they don't realise that the Gorilla actually appears half way. So I noticed that Gorilla, but I thought it was a person who was wearing a mask. So yes, J said I was blur cause I mistook the Gorilla as a person. Anyway, it was nice talking to J. You really made my day with all your funny jokes. I'm really looking forward in getting to know you better. Though our friendship started out a bit late but I think you are a great person to know and you are definitely one great friend to have. (:

Let nature take it's course.
If it happens, it will.
If it doesn't, something better will.
Trusting in you, God.

You make me happy. (:

2006-11-01T14:15:00.000+08:00

Audio: Saving Grace by United Live

Just a picture to show you the main cast of my favourite show now. (:
So yesterday was a day spent in Ngee Ann Poly and in church. It took me like 1 and a half hours plus to get there. Luckily I didn't go to that school if not I will just drop dead. Imagining travelling 1 hours plus to school everyday, how bad can that be? Anyway, Eveleen, Eugene and I met up to do the slides for the songs for Worship Night. I must say we did a good job in doing everything. But you should have seen Eugene and I throughout the whole process when we doing the thing. We were totally insane lah. Eveleen was the only sane one there. Haha, it was seriously hilarious. And we were saying we should have record it down and put it as a behind the scene footage. But anyway, I want to thank God for giving me Eveleen and Eugene to help with the publicity side. Without them, I don't know how am I going to cope with it. Cos there were lots of stuffs to do but so little time. And the video is out! All thanks to Kimberly for that. I can sense that a ot of people will be touched by this event. Altough there is the committee doing all the work, but without God, it is totally impossible. I am just so excited for Worship Night to happen. Can't wait, can't wait! (:

So after their school, was church for mission training. It was on medical training last night. It was a lot of fun cos we did role play and everything. 25 more days to mission. (:

What am I feeling?
Is it just me or true in both ways?
Believe, don't believe.
Continue, don't continue.
But whatever it is, I'm happy the way it is now. (:

2006-10-30T21:29:00.000+08:00

Yes, and that's the aftermathe of the whole BBQ. Looks like I'm posing huh? Haha. (:

Our very beautiful creation of dont know what actions? hmmm.

We were doing 1,2,3,4. Haha, what a retarded shot. It's a sequence shot.

Jumping in the night. That's me, eveleen and leon. (:

The girls during BBQ. Yes, look at the curry. It's superbly-duperbly nice! :D

2006-10-30T18:13:00.000+08:00

Audio: Shi Jie Wei Yi De Ni by Cao Ge

I am back from school finally. Was really sleepy in school today lah, didn't really concentrate during lessons. So, went to PS food court after school as usual to eat our favourite food there, Cai Peng. Yes, my friends and I have been eating that for almost the past 1 month. Haha, I can't imagine how I lived through those days man. Anyway after lunch, Fiona, Amanda and I went to Mustafa Center to shop. I didn't buy anything though at Mustafa Center. But Fiona and Amanda got some stuffs though. So we walked almost the whole of Mustafa Center to look for fbt shorts but apparently we found none there lah. So we kind of wasted our trip down there. But anyway, I felt the sudden urge to go buy jumpers! So, cabbed down to Bugis Junction to get jumpers. I've really been looking around for jumpers lah but I just can't seem to find one. But nevermind, I finally found one that suits me a lot. So I bought that for $30. Can say that it was a good buy. Then after that, went to the top level of Bugis Village to walk around. And something caught my eye again. It was an orange watch so, I bought it. I am a nut for watches lah. After buying that watch, we were kind of tired so sat down in Starbucks and talk. It was a nice chat lah. Shared with them some of the things that I've been going through. After that went to Adidas and was home sweet home!

Yup, so it was BBQ night on Sat. It was really a very succesful one all thanks to those who have put in effort to do the things. Met with them in the morning to go buy the food needed. And I found this really cheap and nice Otah stall. After that went back to church to get the things ready. We had water games in the afternoon and it was real fun. So BBQ night started and we ate and ate. Pictures were taken too and a lot of stupid pictures were taken of us doing wierd things. On Sunday was church, mission practice, lunch with J and then work.

Mission practice was great. Didn't learn new things but we went through all the things that we learnt the weeks before. Really want to thank God for the practices that we have. Although it's really short, but, it shows the unity among the people. I really can see God working in this whole thing. After mission practice, headed to PS, Mos Burger to have lunch with my dearest friend, J. Haha, it was a good lunch I must say. Glad to know you better and thanks for the treat too. You are a really sweet friend to have. I really treasure the friendship. (: So after lunch, we had nothing to do and we took a walk around the basement. J wanted to see phones lah and after that we were bored so went to take a walk in Carrefour then headed to work. Work was alright. It was my last day there and yes, thanks to Sean I got an ulcer in my mouth now lah. He punched me in the face by accident. And my braces cut the side of my mouth. Nvm, that wasn't only it. After that I was standing at the kitchen area and Sean again bumped into me! I got hit by his boney body lah and it was so painful. Thanks Sean, what a wonderful and beautiful gift you give me on my last day of work.

I better stop here, or the post might just bore you all readers. Shall update another time. (:

Moved on.
Hmmm. Good, bad?
Let things take it's course.
And see where it leads to. (:

2006-10-27T23:05:00.000+08:00

Audio: Restore me

Presentation is finally over. Phew, I guess all I can do is to thank God. Seriously, there's nothing much I could do in the last minute before presentation. All I had was some stupid notes on perfume and I had to 'pop' out some things to say about it. I guess it went well although I kind of stumbled a bit. And my classmates said they found it funny just by looking at my facial expressions. And they were laughing all the way lah but due to that, it kind of helped me a little in a sense that they helped me to relax which is good. (:

So started Diploma class today and yes, more assignments are dued now. I've got 2 assignments and an exam to hand in and take in this coming month before I leave for Thailand. I really need the discipline and whatever to start doing what I need to do. If not it will be last minute work again and it will just stress me even more. But fret not, I've been studying for my exam and will be heading down to the National Library with Fiona, Amanda, Shanu and Jamie to research on my assingment topics next Thursday. Anyway, back to Diploma class. It was alright. Suprisingly I could catch up with the lesson although I was terribly sleepy during lecture. Some brain terms were familiar to me due to the fact that I took Bio. All thanks to Bio, if not I think I will be struggling right at this point. So it was a good first lesson with Mr. Naidu.

After that was work. It was not that bad. Finally, my resignation letter is in. Which means I will be officially out of Secret Recipe next week. (: So, I was talking to this friend of mine and she 'pop-ed' this really wierd question at me.

Her: You like Simon right?
Me: No, I don't. What makes you think I do?
Her: Just asking, who knows.
Me: No way, he is like so old and everything. Totally cannot lah.
Her: No what, cos I was talking to him yesterday and he is sad that you are leaving.
Me: Oh, no lah. He is totally out of the question.

By the way, Simon is my manager. That is the funny thing about this whole issue lah. Right, so when the question processed in my head I was totally speechless. Haha. Cos it was totally wierd to think of any of the above happening. Anyway, I was laughing my head off after that. So totally hilarious lah, goodness me. Though I may be happy leaving Secret Recipe, but, at the same time I am sad also. Cos I can't bear to leave the friendships forged there. But nevermind, since I've made up my mind to leave then I got to leave. No more turning back of any sort.

You know I'm so affected by this whole thing.
It's draining me in all sorts of ways.
What can I do to deal with it?
Come and leave.
Yet, not totally leaving.
Lingering there just like that.
Why, why and why?

I've been playing this song over and again and it actually does help me a little bit. Cause this song talks about restoring a person. Anyway, I better go off now. It's getting late and tmr I got to be up early. Goodnight! (:

Restore me.
Restore me, I would have no way but yours my Lord
Restore me, like a eagle spreads its wings and soars
I would lift my faithless heart to a God whose love is pure
Resting in your arms I am secure
Restore me

I lift my prayer to a God who wants to hear
Each groan that I call out in his name
And standing here in silence
I wait for you to speak
For your whisper heals me with one word

Restore me, I would have no way but yours my Lord
Restore me, like a eagle spreads its wings and soars
I would lift my faithless heart to a God whose love is pure
Resting in your arms I am secure
Restore me

I lift my prayer to a God who wants to hear
Each groan that I call out in his name
And standing here in silence
I wait for you to speak
For your whisper heals me with one word

Restore me, I would have no way but yours my Lord
Restore me, like a eagle spreads its wings and soars
I would lift my faithless heart to a God whose love is pure
Resting in your arms I am secure (x2)
Restore me

You bring me love
You bring me peace
(You) lift me high on eagle's wings (x4)

2006-10-26T00:33:00.000+08:00

Facedown.
Welcome into the courts of the King
I've been ushered into your presence
Lord i stand on your merciful ground
Yet when every step thread with reverence

And i'll fall facedown
As your glory shines around
Yes, i'll fall facedown
As your glory shines around

2006-10-25T21:56:00.000+08:00

Audio: Facedown by Matt Redman

Presentation is tmr and I have nothing to say. 5 mins, one slide on cosmetics and health psychology. 5 mins may seem to be a rather short timing but to me, it's like so long to work with lah. It's like 20% worth of marks. Got to really find something to say if not I'm so going to be smashed pork meat tmr. This is the thing about finding for informations last minute. So remember, last minute work never helps. I should learn how to do things earlier and not leave everything to the day before next time. Yes, I keep telling myself that but it always doesn't seem to work in any way. :(

Okay, let's not talk about presentation already. I've got school 3 days in a week now. Monday, Thursday and Friday that is. And Friday classes are meant to be a crash in Dip course. Which means, I've got more exams and assignments dued in the next 2 coming months. This isn't a good sign. Although my results were not bad for the first 2 modules, but, I feel that I need to buck up real soon if not everything will just go down the drain. Keep praying for me to perservere on. I need loads of prayers!

Took the jabs needed for Thailand mission trip today at Uncle Kok Chi's clinic. I just can't wait for Thailand mission to start. It's exactly 1 month away from today. I miss Thailand. Every part of it is being missed there. The friends, the food that we had to take, the time spent there, the bathing and sleeping conditions we had to endure. But what makes me keep going back to Thailand is the work that God is doing there. I see the grace and goodness of God working in those people's lives. Eventhough they may not be experiencing the luxuries that we are having, but, I see their sincerity when it comes to wanting to know God. I really pray that this mission trip will be a fruitful one yet again.

Compassion compels us to pray.

By the way, there's something interesting coming up in Nov.

Event:Worship Night
Theme: Heart Of Worship
Date: 18th Nov 2006
Time: 7pm
Location: LKC Hall, COA

2006-10-25T00:51:00.000+08:00

Mighty To Save.
Saviour
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever, author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

by the way, the links and tag board is done. (:

2006-10-24T20:42:00.000+08:00

I'm back again after a long time in not posting anything. It's been long since I touched this blogger thing. As you can see the blog doesn't have a tag board or have any links cos the blog is still under construction. Will definitely put it up soon.

Oh anyway, it's been half a year since I took Psychology. Hmmm, things have been alright lah. I am coping with it well. I have learnt alot of things through this course. Not only does it help me but it also allow me to help others too. And that is my main purpose. (:

So working at Secret Recipe for 5 months has been a blast. Won't go into details but it's been an experience that I will never forget. Meeting the people there and coping with the situations at work has made me grown as a person in a personal way. This will be the last week at Secret Recipe and I won't be stepping into that place to work anymore. At first, I was thinking of taking a break but I have thought through and I decided that I should just quit totally. So after quitting this job, I will be either giving tuition, doing paper work or doing a free-lance job. Will decide which is the best job for me. Got to really pray hard about it.

I don't know why but I've been feeling really tired about a lot of things. Work is one of the reasons why. School will soon be one of the reasons. Cos I've got exams, presentation and assignments to hand in soon. And they are crashing in diploma for this whole month. It's all these things that are weighing me down but I have faith that I will get through this.

After quitting my job, I am going to re-prioritise everything. That will be God, family, school and work. I don't want to let work take away the important things that I am suppose to be focusing on. I hope this will allow me to feel better in a way.

Anyway, I will update soon. Got to go do my things now. Toodles! :D