Thursday, January 11, 2007
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Monday, January 08, 2007
I am so tired today. I slept at 5 am last night so I ended only having about 2 hours of sleep. I was pratically dozing off during lesson today cos it was very dry. So learnt more about Social Psychology and things about impression and stuffs like that. So after that was lunch with the classmates at PS food court then to Times Bookshop and Spotlight first before heading off to SR to sit for awhile. Anyway, I found new books today that I want to buy. So I shall save money and buy it when I get enough money. So after sitting at SR, Sheryl came and off I went to met her. She was suppose to accompany me to go look for some presents but end up we were both hungry so we settled our butts down at Meridien food court and had our dinner. After that, I was sooo freakin' tired that I could actually fall asleep while eating. So hence the decision for me to go home and sleep instead of shopping. So both of us left for home. The bus journey was so long that I managed to sleep while on the way home. So got home and the bed was calling me so off I went to lie down and watch tv. I think I am going to sleep now, cos I am not feeling too good also. So I should rest.
Anyway, thanks for listening yesterday eventhough it was like at 3 am? You know who you are. It really helped me a lot. Thanks man! (:
IT'S 3 FRIGGIN' AM NOW AND I AM STILL AWAKE WHEN THERE'S SCHOOL TMR AT 9.30! And I am suppose to meet Sheryl after that so I really have no idea how am I going to tahan until whatever time we're going out until. Anyway, the reason why I am still awake is cos something happened when I was half asleep and I can't get back to sleep now.
You know what? I don't know what to do or what to say even. I am in confusion totally, my mind's in a huge mess. All I can think of now are the words that you said. It just keeps ringing in my head. UGH. I just need something to like hammer it out of my brains! I really don't know what is the best way for this thing. You know, things are more complicated as it seems. And yeah, it's been bugging me ever since I-don't-know-when. Tell me what do you want seriously, at least it helps that way for me in particular. Okay, maybe I should go with what my heart. Afterall, it's only between me and you not others. It's that phrase that makes me mad at you. Hate this feeling, it's like crap. Neither here nor there. ): ): ):
Digressing, Thailand Mission is from the 24th Nov-9th Dec this year. I am wanting to go. But, at the same time the calling is also important. So pray about it and see whether His plans are for me to go or stay. Okay, it's been a long day for me and I am getting a little sleepy now after all that things going on. So, I will try to sleep and get some rest before I zonk out in class tmr.
Friday, January 05, 2007
A poem that I got from the net. Written by a father whose kid is ill. So just enjoy reading it.
Entitled ; To My Child.
Just for this morning, I am going to smile when I see your face and laugh when I feel like crying. Just for this morning, I will let you choose what you want to wear, and smile and say how perfect it is.
Just for this morning, I am going to step over the laundry and pick you up and take you to the park to play.
Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together.
Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with you in the backyard and blow bubbles.
Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck, and I will buy you one if he comes by.
Just for this afternoon, I won't worry about what you are going to be when you grow up, or second guess every decision I have made where you are concerned.
Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me bake cookies, and I won't stand over you trying to fix them.
Just for this afternoon, I will take us to McDonald's and buy us both a Happy Meal so you can have both toys.
Just for this evening, I will hold you in my arms and tell you a story about how you were born and how much I love you.
Just for this evening, I will let you splash in the tub and not get angry.
Just for this evening, I will let you stay up late while we sit on the porch and count all the stars. Just for this evening, I will snuggle beside you for hours, and miss my favourite TV shows.
Just for this evening when I run my finger through your hair as you pray, I will simply be grateful that God has given me the greatest gift ever given.
I will think about the mothers and fathers who are searching for their missing children, the mothers and fathers who are visiting their children's graves instead of their bedrooms.
The mothers and fathers who are in hospital rooms watching their children suffer senselessly and screaming inside that little body.
And when I kiss you goodnight I will hold you a little tighter, a little longer.
It is then, that I will thank God for you, and ask him for nothing, except one more day..
I AM SICK, i think. I am not very sure cos the syptoms of it seems to be similar to a flu. But, I am not sure cos it might be due to my sinus caused by the dust. Cos yesterday I was packing my room right, and there were like loads of dust around so after that, I started sneezing non stop and until now, I am still sneezing. Plus, my nose is running too. So the symptoms are alike but I am not sure. So, it was extremely terrible last night cos my nose was clogged and I couldn't breathe properly. I had to toss and turn around until I find a comfortable spot where the air supply will just flow normally. I was suffering totally man. I just hope when I sleep tonight, it won't be the same as last night. If not, die!
Right, so as I was saying school is suppose to start today right? But, at about 10 am, my dearest buddy msged me and said that class was cancelled so our lunch was not on too. I was like oh man, I was looking forward to school lah and last minute news recieved that school is cancelled? So, another day of purely slacking at home. I am so not used to it, cos I have been out almost everyday for the past month and now it feels funny when I am doing nothing at home. Never mind, it's good in a way cos I spend some time at home. Like show face a bit also lah cos it's not very nice if I keep going out too. And my dad will keep complaining that I go out too much and everything.
And while I was at home today, I finally finished reading Prozac Nation. I think it took me like months to finish that book man. Cos I stopped reading it for a while in between so I didn't get the momentum back to read until recently. So yes, I am finally done with the book. It's a reaally good book. Cos the author completely opens up her life to the readers and said how she dealt with depression. It's just a beautifully written book. So, for those who have yet to read the book, go read it. It's a good investment. Will be lending my book to Eveleen. So after this book, I am off to find a new book to read. Just hope I find the right one.
Survivor, here I come! (:
Thursday, January 04, 2007
I changed my template and my tag board. Cos I was kind of bored of the old template so decided to go for something new. And it's still orange, but never mind. I like the colour and that is all that matters. As for the tag board I changed it cos the old one wasn't working anymore so now you all can tag on my board again cos it's new! (:
So for the past two days, I have been at home. For the first time in 2 months, I actually stayed home for 2 days in a row. And I actually feel kind of accomplished today. Cos I packed my room . It looks so much better now and it feels so much more comfortable lah. I think my room was in a mess even before I left for Thailand. So now that everything is in place and not cluttered on the floor, I feel so much more spacious. Cos I have a small room so imagine if things are just placed on the floor, there would be not much space to walk anymore.
So finally school is starting tmr. I actually prefer to go to school rather then to stay at home. Cos if I am at home, the things that I would do basically would be watching tv, sitting in front of the comp, reading or sleeping. That's basically what I do when I am at home so this is the reason why I sometimes prefer to go out and have fun. Wells, only child what so I don't really have anyone to play with or talk to. Anyway, speaking about school, I kind of miss school too. Cos I miss the times spent hanging out with my classmates and the times where we have lessons. It's interesting lah the lessons so I don't mind having them. So school tmr and I am looking forward to it! (:
Right, my blog entries are a bit boring cos if I am at home, there will be nothing interesting for me. So I will blog another day. I am off to catch some more tv. Toodles! (:
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
I haven't been blogging for the past few days cos I haven't been home early. So basically what is early for me now is like 11pm? I can like reach home at 4 plus am nowadays lah. So my body clock is seriously haywired like nobody's business. I sleep in the morning and am awake at night. Right, this is bad cos being awake and staying up late is not a very good idea. Hmmm, I got to get it back by Friday cos Friday means the start of school and next week I will be back at Secret Recipe working so I need to get my body clock right once again within this week.
So before I forget and go on with the updates about the past few days, happy 2007 to y'all! Time is passing really quickly lah. It's like I just got over my 18th birthday and this year I will be 19 at the end of the year. And every year, I just feel that time is passing faster and faster lah. Don't you all feel the same too? I won't say how has 2006 been cos there has been lots of ups and downs. But overall, I have been blessed by God tremendously. And I'm really grateful for that. I just hope that year 2007 will be a better one. (:
So what have I been up to for the past few days? 28th was spent in church having Coffeeshop Nite practice and then dinner at Belle's house. We had really good food at Belle's house then after that was to the coffeeshop opposite her house for supper! I think that day I got home at like 1 plus am.
Then I woke up the next day for Coffeshop Nite. It was a really long day. Had practices after practices. We set up the whole place and set the ambience right. So as the time passes, people started coming into church. And the performances was being held and all. Coffeshop Nite is a night to thank God for whatever things He has done for us in the year. And the event was indeed a success although there were like so much food left over. I really thank God for his faithfulness on that day lah cos I could really sense his presence with us. And other then the good food, there was good music too! All thanks to those who have put in effort to make this event a success! So after Coffeeshop Nite ended, we were off to Eveleen's house to change and get ready for DXO. By the time we got there it was like 1 am. So we stayed until it closed and by the time we got out, we were all very much zonked cos it was like 4 am. So some of us went back to Eveleen's house whereas the rest went to Sentosa. I really want to thank God cos he watched over us on the way back to Eveleen's house. Cos the cab driver drove straight into the curb and he didn't even take notice of it until he kind of banged into it quite hard. So was grateful for the safety that God granted us. So by the time we got ready for bed, it was 5 am. I had a tough time waking up the next day lah.
I think I slept until 1 pm then we had lunch then was off to church for games day. Had the usual games then I left to meet Pork at Toa Payoh. We were shopping there and she treated me to dinner. Aww, so sweet of her lah. Then after walking around, we made our way to Pasir Ris to get our hair done. We were there from like 9 plus all the way to 1 am again. So after that, she came my house to stay over for the night. Then as usual, we will talk and all and by the time we slept, it was like 3am? Then the next day was service in church then off to Sim Lim, cos some of them want to get their things. After Sim Lim, headed to Adeline's house for some slacking moments before heading to church for Watchnight service. I was suppose to meet K and CC and some others in town but then some of them couldn't make it so the meeting was cancelled. But I was quite thankful that I didn't meet them, cos if I did then I will be missing out the steamboat. So we ate supper again. We ate from 12 plus 1 am all the way to 4 am. Right, then by the time I slept it was 5am!
And the next day some of us met together to head over to Demi's to spend some time with her. Poor her, she cracked her ankle while skiing lah. So we slacked, watch Inside Man, ordered pizzas for dinner then talked before Eveleen and I left at 11 plus to head over to her house. We headed over to MOS after that. It was a night of R&B and Hip Hop music. So we were there with Pork. A good time I must say, cos at least they both of them got to talk to one another and it wasn't really that awakward right? So we shared cab home. By the time we got back it was 4 am. Slept and today was spent over at Cass's house for Brownie Day. It was a good day today cos we made our own Brownies and played a lot of games. Good fellowship.
I really thank God for the past few days. Cos I got to spend time with some people. It will be very difficult this week cos everybody is starting to get busy with school so it will be very hard for us to meet up again. Although it was really tiring, but, it the quality of the time spent with the people that counts not the quantity. So really praise God for that! (:
School is starting this Friday. For some of them, tmr marks the start of the school term. It was a good break lah. It came just at the right time. Right, this Dec holidays was a blast! Many things happen. I won't say what happened but, I guess it all happens for a reason. But, I am just bewildered by the comment made by somebody. I won't say who cos I don't think I am feeling the same way as how the person is feeling. So I just hope the person won't think the wrong way. Right, I am so tired and I got to go call my friend now so I got to go. Toodles! (:
What am I to do? So many! Ahhhh. HELP!
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Have I mentioned that I have been out almost everyday for the past few days or weeks? This is bad, cos going out means spending money which isn't good cos it's like I'm wasting my money away luh. And I am suppose to save money not spend it like nothing. I have to control myself seriously know? This habit is terrible! ARGH. I will try my best not to spend on unnecessary stuffs. But it is always not the case for me luh. Anyway, today was spent out in town again.
I think this week I went to town like don't know how many times already luh. But today was spent more fruitfully other then walking around aimlessly. Today was spent watching movie with some of them. Night At The Museum that is. It's not a really fantastic movie though. It was just alright due to the front part where the plot was a little draggy. It was the back that was really entertaining and people in the cinema just burst out laughing literally luh. It is definitely worth $6.50 but not $9.50. So if you want to watch it, go watch it on a weekday not a weekend. Right, so after that, we went to walk around for awhile first before plating our butts down to eat at KFC. So after KFC, was major walking around. We went from PS to Heeren where we spent most of our time at. Then later to Far East. Eve had to look for a suitable dress for Friday so we were accompanying her around the shopping malls.
Now the movie line, dumb dumb give me gum gum is stuck in my head luh, seriously. I don't know how am I suppose to get it out of my head. Even my MSN nick is also that luh! Right. So tmr will be another long day spent outside. First to church for all the Coffeshop Nite stuff then at night is Christmas dinner at Belle's house. First time going to her house. Wonder what is it like, but, according to Char, it's really nice so looking forward to see it tmr night. The day is drawing nearer now, 2 days! I seriously can't wait!
And did I mention too that I still miss Thailand like how you would miss your bed if you didn't have it for 2 months? It's that bad, I tell you. I did miss Thailand when I went over there a few years ago. But, this year seems to be really bad. I mean it has been 17 days since we are back but the feelings for Thailand still lingers there. I didn't know it will be that bad seriously! I just miss the simpleness of it, the children and everything about there! And the pictures bring even more memories back now. I can just look at the photos of it and fall asleep every night. Alright, I should stop saying about it cos I can just go on and on about it. It can become an essay already.
God has provided a lot to me this year. And this year is coming to an end in 4 days? Hmm, new year, new resolutions. I have not sat down and really thought through them yet. But I guess I will in the next few days. And one of them is definitely a closer and more personal relationship with God. I know I kind of fail doing it every year after I said it, but, this year, I'm really going to try my best to do it and not just merely saying it. It's going to be tough but I believe I can do it with God's help! (:
Okay, I will wish Eveleen a
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!
You are like finally 18 and I am almost there. Just 1 more day only! Anyway, thanks for your friendship girl, you mean so much to me that nothing can describe it! LOVES. mwah! (:
Okay, got to talk to my best friend now so toodles y'all.
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
HAPPY BOXING DAY people! And of course a belated Christmas! I wasn't home until like 4am yesterday so couldn't update. This is bad, I realised that after I come back from Thailand, my whole body clock is like upside down luh! Is like I only sleep at like 3 plus 4 am and I wake up at 1 plus 2 pm? Leave the house until at night then go home. That's basically my life cycle for now luh. Which is really bad cos it's unhealthy. Right, I better get my body clock right on track again.
So this is suppose to be Christmas season, but this year doesn't feel like it's the season. I don't know why, but, it just feels very different. Maybe it's because of the things that are happening around me that's why.
So past few days were spent in church. We had Carols by Candlelight on Christmas Eve, and it was quite okay. Performances were being put up and all. And it was raining again. So all the things that were being set up the previous night had to be moved in and cleaned. The logistics people worked very hard for the event. And they did a really good job with the sound and the lightings and everything. They even stayed over in church the previous night to look after the things luh! They were all very tired but yet, they still work so hard for it. So, after the event, we had supper at PP then I went off to TTSH again. So by the time I got home, it was already 2 plus am and I had to rush Christmas gifts so I ended up sleeping only at 4 plus. And the next day church service was on at 10 am.
So Christmas day, was spent giving and recieving presents. The things that I got this year were not as much as previous years, but this year's gifts held so much more meaning then previous years. I think cos I was younger last time so I didn't really appreciate it much. So after church, was lunch with the family at Aunty Pamela's house. Met up with the family but it felt really wierd. I felt that there was this gap in between us. I just couldn't relate to them like how is used to in the past? After that was outing with Vincent. Went to shop for more Christmas gifts in town and we were kind of tired, so we went to Marina Square to sit down and slack before meeting up with the others for dinner at Different Taste. After dinner, headed to K Box at Parkway Parade. The air con was like freezing there luh. It felt as if we were in the freezer. All thanks to Kenneth for his sleeping bag and extra T shirts, it gave us a bit of warmth. So stayed there for 6 hours then we left and home sweet home it was. By the time I got home, I was so tired that I just plonked my body on the bed and I fell asleep straight away!
Okay, birthday is in 3 days time! Kind of looking forward to it but at the same time, I am afraid too. Cos of some reasons that I don't really want to mention. Just see how it goes.
Coffeshop Nite
29th Dec, 6.30 pm
LKC Hall
Okay, I better go off now. Update some other time! (:
3 days to whatever things, right.
